I was talking with one of my co-workers recently, Angela. She's mmm somewhere between 24-27, married, happy.
She was asking me about my current relationship with the man I'm seeing. She seemed so interested so I gave in and decided to answer whatever she asked. I don't have any "girlfriends" really that I talk to about much so it sort of was a nice conversation that I don't get to have too often.
She asked question, I elaborated on almost everything she could have wanted to know.
There were a few things she did ask or bring up that seemed to bother me.
One. (not verbatim-->) What do you adore the most about him
In all of the actual serious relationships I've had, (which I guess would really only be 2 or 3) there has always been one thing that each boy will do that I absolutely adore.
- When I dated Jimmy, he always like to be touching me. Not in a sexual manner, but just liked to be close to me. If I was driving or in the passenger seat he would always have his hand on my leg, holding my hand, or rubbing my neck. If we were out somewhere. he in some way would be touching me. Hand on my back, holding me, just something. I absolutely loved that he loved to always be that close to me. I am not a sexually physical person so much, but I am a very close touchy-feely person and he understood that.
- When I dated Blake throughout highschool, he had this thing where he would touch my face when we were laying together. I guess for example watching a movie. If we were talking, he would always run his fingertips across my cheek.. or my neck. No matter what we would be talking about. He loved running his fingers along my skin, and I loved it more than anything.
-The kid I am with now, Gregory. He always does this one thing I particularly like. Right before we go to sleep, he would always kiss my back about a bajillion times. I know he couldn't see it, but it made me make the biggest smile ever. I loved it, and even though it's something as silly as that.... it for some reason gave me this sense of that he loved having me around. Actions speak louder than words, and that's what that meant to me. I would be on my side and he would have his arms wrapped around me, lay his head so close to me that I could feel his heart beating. Lately, he hasn't been kissing my back, or for that matter sleeping as close to me. He tends to roll to the opposite side of the bed. I miss the kisses on my back, and feeling his chest pressed against me. I guess it really does make me feel safe to have him there.
Two. Does he come down to see you often?
This is one of the most important questions, and probably the most controversial. He lives roughly an hour and fifteen mins away (give or take). I'll make it perfectly clear to start, that I absolutely hate living/staying where I am in Richmond. So, any chance given I do like getting out of the city. However, Gregory and I met/started dating on New Years. I'm not sure that we have yet to go (as of the date of this post) one weekend without seeing one another. Though, I should make it clear that he has been to Richmond I will say possibly two times in these past four-ish months. The first time, was the very first weekend after we met. He convinced his roommate to drive down and they stayed for a night. I loved it. The second time, he came down because there was a band he wanted to see and they just happened to be playing close to me. They again stayed for one night (him and his roommate).
Gregory does not have his car on the road. Since I have met him, he has not had his car on the road. It's not registered due to some bullshit with his ex, or ex's maybe, fucking up his car. He needs a new windshield. Now ever since the beginning of Febuary I can remember him saying almost every week: "I'll get it fixed this weekend." I do not have my sights set too high for this to happen anytime in the near future, at all.
Now, despite the fact that I really do like getting out of Richmond.... it honestly would be nice for him to drop by every once in a while. I'm driving over 200 miles every weekend to go see him, plus whatever running around we do beause we then have to take my car again. I don't mind driving, and I don't mind going to see him. I prefer it, but really.. a visit from him would be amazing. I know he doesn't have a car, but he's also been saying since I've met him he will get it fixed.
Everytime I go up to see him, he takes care of me. I'm not sure I have payed for much of anything since I've met him, which is really weird. It's nice every once in a while, and yes that is taking care of me. But.. I guess I just feel like I'm lacking the fact of him showing that he cares for me.
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There were other things, but I guess those are the only two things that I wish would change.
I think that we have a pretty good relationship, and for dating right when we met.. it's lasting longer than I could have anticipated. I'm happy about that, but just suprised at the same time.
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